Wake up Call..

Wake up CALL ...

So this morning, I got on the scale and I weighed 195.8. NOT OK! Ok granted, I am on my period so that automatically adds weight up there...but still...NOT OK! 

Matthew and I had a discussion the other night about our future, family wise :) We decided that if I get down to my goal weight of 150 and can maintain it for 3 months, we can start trying to start a family! Talk about motivation! I want to be a mommy and have a little baby to care for and raise! It's really exciting! So this happened on Saturday, this discussion! I am really excited about this new motivation! However, after getting all excited about it...what did I do? Eat horribly on Sunday and have Taco Bell on Monday night after my meeting with Arbonne! 

What brought on the wake up call? Well, this morning, Matthew was looking at my phone and ended up on my myfitnesspal account. He saw the weight on there and goes..."You almost weigh 200 pounds! That's almost as much as me!" He didn't mean it in a bad way, I know that, but it really cut deep! Why? BECAUSE ITS TRUE! It is 100% true. I do weigh almost 200 pounds...which in all honesty...is probably MORE than my husband at this moment. 

I am having a hard time dealing with it to tell you the truth. He of course apologized for saying that to me...you know how men are...they don't always think everything through before the words come out. He just wants me to be happy and healthy and he knows that I am not right now. I have been complaining to him endlessly about and then he sees me eat horrible and not work out...His point rings true. 

So with that being said, I am on my period now...which means that I KNOW I'm thinking about this way too much. But it really hit me...

I almost weigh 200 pounds! 

This has to change...

A New Journey Ahead :)

Time for a new journey to begin...

     For the past year, well almost a year, I've been working as a recruiter for a manufacturing client in Mascot, TN through Aerotek. This was my first job out of college and I was so excited to take on this new opportunity to be able to provide for my family and use something that my degree actually taught me! I started on March 5, 2012 and couldn't have been happier! However, not too far along into my time there, I started to notice some things that I didn't like nor did I know about the company when I was hired. This isn't a comprehensive list but here it goes: lots of cussing, lots of drinking, some more cussing, lots of negative feedback (i.e. "you either move up or move out here...you have to perform"), no work life balance at all, some more cussing and drinking and another scoop of no work/life balance thrown in there with a really negative atmosphere! I think that mainly covered it. About two months into it, I started having some serious problems health wise. I couldn't sleep and was having a hard time eating at all. My stomach was constantly hurting and I just felt so very out of control. I would cry on the way to work, I would cry on lunch, I would cry on the way home and then I would cry when I got home because I knew I had to go back! I ended up on Zoloft, an anxiety medicine, because I started having hardcore anxiety attacks at work, at home, at the gym...anywhere and everywhere! I ended up going to the doctor and she put me out of work for two days because of this in combination with not sleeping, not eating and my blood pressure was all out of whack too! I went back and my boss decided to tell me that he didn't believe my doctor's note. I mean really?!?! 

     So around June, I ended up out here at Exedy America onsite with Jennifer Kendall (most awesome boss ever), and life settled down a little bit. I got the hang of the whole thing and was doing pretty good...then it happened again. Scott came down on us and basically nothing we did was right and our jobs were always on the line! It's ridiculous and started to really wear on me again. I gained like 30 pounds and stopped going to the gym, stopped wanting to eat healthy, started not sleeping again and having NO energy at all! It got really bad around Thanksgiving/Christmas time, and I started to hardcore look for a job. I kept running into some type of brick wall...couldn't interview because of my current schedule, not enough money, or they felt I was too overqualified. Finally, the last straw happened around the end of January when Scott pulled everything in the book and started acting like a complete butthead again to both myself and Jennifer! This prompted everyone I knew to start helping me out...and finally...I got a breakthrough! I had a contact at Traveler's insurance and they were able to help me out! I got a job offer Monday, February 25, 2013 to work for Traveler's Insurance as a Sales Representative and I start Monday, March 18, 2013. I put in my two week notice to Jennifer and miraculously Scott didn't seem to freak out too much! THANK GOD! 

     With that being said, this begins my new journey to a new and better me! I have so many things that I want to accomplish with this move in my life. This new job has structure, training and a better environment for development. I'm so excited! I do believe that I can really take this and run with it and better myself in so many other ways! This job is going from 10-7, which means I can go to the gym BEFORE work and not have to wake up at the crack of dawn and I KNOW I will be able to get off at 7:00 no questions asked! I'll have my life back on a schedule again and feel so amazing because I know what I will be doing! It's pretty amazing! I just feel like having a set schedule and a normal life again will help me in so many ways! We will be able to go to the gym together, actually be able to take a vacation and do things together as husband and wife without being afraid of getting called into work at some UNGODLY hour to deal with an injury or incident! I'm so excited :) 

     This is most amazing thing in the world and I cannot wait to get started on this new journey! 

Back into the groove...

Man getting back into the groove is so darn hard! It's like pulling teeth that aren't ready to come out yet!

What brought this on you ask? Well, after NOT going to the gym yesterday at all and eating a keylime pie cupcake and a small ice dream cone from Chickfila a....Matthew and I went to the gym this morning...at 5am! Yes 5am! I so didn't want to go, not Ben one little bit! However, we did and I feel so much better! Tomorrow will be the test....if we make it to the gym early as well! :)

Well, here it goes! Lets get this!

Monday Blues :/

Monday Blues :/

Today, I literally just want to curl up in a ball in my bed with a teddy bear and sleep for a week! I am physically and emotionally exhausted and just feel like walking is legitimately difficult to do! I am having a hard time concentrating on anything. I can't get my head around anything at all today! I am having a really difficult time today. I just feel as if it is hard to move my limbs and even to breathe! It is hard to swallow because of a type "acid reflux" or something! 

I'm not sure if it is a combination of things: stress from work, new house, stress from work or what...but i just feel beat! 

I mean seriously, I feel absolutely beat! I need some more time to relax and revamp! Which unfortunately doesn't really happen all that much! Oh well! I've got to get through this slump! I have done it before and I know that I can do it again! Just wanted to share with everyone, sometimes talking it out makes it easier for me! 

Well...

Alright guys! I'm back! I had a rough end of the year where I basically had about a million things going on and well I found myself about 20 pounds heavier than I wanted to be at this point in time! So with that being said....I'm back! I have four weddings to get ready for and I better bust my hind end in shape! Check my other blog that my best friend and I are doing at www.bb1and2.blogspot.com :)

Post Holiday Plans

Good morning all! 

No, I didn't fall off the face of the earth or anything crazy like that...I just took a hiatus from well, everything! Just wanted to send out a quick post to update you all on some of the new and exciting things going on in our lives!

Good news!

We are closing on our first house on January 10, 2013. It is in South Knoxville (back to our roots where we lived when we first got married!) It's 4 bedrooms and two bathrooms with an awesome kitchen and a huge backyard for my babies (aka puppies-Pumpkin and Peyton) to play in! :) We are so excited we can hardly stand it! We will be moving this weekend to put some of our stuff in a warehouse and then house sitting for some friends until time to move in to our house! This has taken up a lot of our time obviously, which has also meant that we are trying to not buy groceries before we move...which  means we ate everything we have in the house and then started eating out! NOT GOOD FOR THOSE OF US WHO ARE IN 4 WEDDINGS NEXT YEAR AND HAVE TO FIT IN DRESSES! Ok, anyways...well...

Well...

I knew that I would have to start at the beginning of the year to get back on track...but apparently my body had other plans. I decided to get a nasty stomach virus that has stuck me to eating crackers and chicken noodle soup for 3 days! Not what I had in mind for a kick start to losing weight, but hey it works! The thought of any other type of food makes me sick to my stomach all over again! 

My plan:

This is my plan! I am going to HARDCORE watch what I am eating until we get into our new house and have better access to the gym (where we are house sitting makes it a little harder for us to go, plus we have a lot of other responsibilities within the next couple weeks! Once we move into our new house and get it all ready, which with us will take about 4 days, this is my plan:

GYM: 3 days during the week (for at least 30 minutes if possible, 1 hour best scenario)

GYM: Saturday and Sunday (spin or Zumba)

MyFitnessPal: stick to this like its the last thing keeping me alive...putting EVERYTHING in it!

Ok...

Now you all have my plan and can help me stick to it! I suppose I should get back to work now! 

Love always,

Brittany 

Well...maybe tomorrow

So I ended up sick today which meant comfort food and no workout! I shall start tomorrow!