Wake up CALL ...
So this morning, I got on the scale and I weighed 195.8. NOT OK! Ok granted, I am on my period so that automatically adds weight up there...but still...NOT OK!
Matthew and I had a discussion the other night about our future, family wise :) We decided that if I get down to my goal weight of 150 and can maintain it for 3 months, we can start trying to start a family! Talk about motivation! I want to be a mommy and have a little baby to care for and raise! It's really exciting! So this happened on Saturday, this discussion! I am really excited about this new motivation! However, after getting all excited about it...what did I do? Eat horribly on Sunday and have Taco Bell on Monday night after my meeting with Arbonne!
What brought on the wake up call? Well, this morning, Matthew was looking at my phone and ended up on my myfitnesspal account. He saw the weight on there and goes..."You almost weigh 200 pounds! That's almost as much as me!" He didn't mean it in a bad way, I know that, but it really cut deep! Why? BECAUSE ITS TRUE! It is 100% true. I do weigh almost 200 pounds...which in all honesty...is probably MORE than my husband at this moment.
I am having a hard time dealing with it to tell you the truth. He of course apologized for saying that to me...you know how men are...they don't always think everything through before the words come out. He just wants me to be happy and healthy and he knows that I am not right now. I have been complaining to him endlessly about and then he sees me eat horrible and not work out...His point rings true.
So with that being said, I am on my period now...which means that I KNOW I'm thinking about this way too much. But it really hit me...
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