Ok...That was a major slip!

I'm Baaaaaaack! And stronger than before! 

Alright, well hey everyone! So sorry for the oh I don't know, month disappearance thing that just happened! I had a lot of stuff go down in practically every single area of my life and I bet you can guess what suffered! You guessed it...my weight, workout and a little bit of my sanity. 

I had a lot of things happen to me over the past month. Life got really stressful and I dealt with it in my normal way...with FOOD! *I've really got to stop doing that, its detrimental to my health!* Anyways, here are some of the things that I have learned over the past little bit...

Things I have learned :)

1. I turn to food for absolutely every emotion: sadness, happiness, boredom... etc

2. I am entirely too sensitive for my own good! (in my personal and professional life)

3. I talk too loud on a consistent basis (I do come from a family of loud mouths)

4. I tend to put myself out there a little to much when it comes to most things, which usually ends up with me getting hurt in someway (hence the too sensitive comment)

5. I have a serious problem with letting things go

     -I replay things over and over in my head until I go crazy

     -I don't leave people alone until I know for sure they aren't mad/upset/disappointed in me       and then when they are....i do everything in my power to reverse it!

6. I have very little self control when it comes to food 

7. I have very little self control when it comes to sticking with an exercise routine

8. I have a hard time learning to separate professional and personal

9. I need to learn to support and encourage my husband more and do more things for him like he does for me

10. I need to invest more time in my relationship with God! (save the best for last!)

**These are things I am going to work on throughout the rest of this year! Really focusing in on these things and trying to improve!**

Other thoughts to add :)

Alrighty, so with all that being said...last night my husband and I were laying in bed and he pointed out some things that I really didn't want to hear but needed to hear! I was complaining about feeling fat and he was like "Well, I don't really feel too bad for you! You ate two slices of bread, two helpings of mashed potatoes and 2 muffins and a couple handfuls of peanuts at dinner!" I didn't even know what to say at this point. I was livid...I can tell you that much! And then he goes, "I don't want to help you anymore because when I do, you get so pissed off at me and it makes me feel like crap...so I'm not gonna help you anymore...you can do it on your own!" I immediately start reeling and freaking out! I'm like, "No you have to help me...I can't do it on my own...its too hard!" And then he said the statement that really made me think, " Ok, then from now own we won't buy anything sweet in the house at all, no snackie foods at all. If I have to sacrifice those things because you can't control yourself, then I will!" At first this really pissed me off! Then as he told me goodnight and we laid there cuddling in bed...I realized...HE WAS RIGHT! 

Finishing up :)

With all that being said, this is the entry from my food diary today on myfitnesspal.com at 184.6 pounds today:

"Today has been ridiculously good! Gym with cardio and weights! Tan and a good protein filled lunch and even took a nice relaxing bath and feel amazing! Now, just to carry this on into the rest of my life! :) Well, maybe I should start with the rest of week first! Baby steps!" 

*I think I'll end with that!*

Love always,
Brittany